I have never really considered myself a writer, but I've always loved to write. If I were to have a random quote, thought, phrase, or whatever you want to call it, pop into my head, I would write them down into my "everything notebook." I've never shared them publicly; sometimes I'd read them out to very close friends, but it never surpassed a couple people. For some time, I wanted to have an artist page where I posted them, but that died pretty fast. At this time of my life, I do not think I want fame, glory, or praise. For a long time, that's what I wanted, but I know now, that I just want to be around likeminded people who'll love and appreciate me for all I am: my wrongs, my growth, and my rights. I want this space to be kind of a reflection of that, of myself, and I know that my page is something you have to *find* , so I hope whoever stumbles across this shares something with me. I hope that you read my writings with no judgment in your heart, but a mind open enough to maybe understand what I had gone through. Many of these are really old and during my college days, where I was a completely different person.
I truly crave nothing but you
I've craved nothing, it's true
But when you talk to me and smile
I can feel that tingle for another mile
It'd be great to just be over it
Being done with you and not thinking shit
But you've won this spot in my head
And for once, I don't feel dead
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You're sending me so many weird signs
Or is that what you're trynna say?
Too bad I fucking love the high
Of feeling like I'm going insane
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You've become my new inspiration
Singing songs about you in my kitchen
But when you talk to me with that smile
I can feel my heart beatin for a while
I don't know why I don't have control
Thinking of you, going into my fourth bowl
I hoped to bite into a golden apple
Turned out you really were just a devil
Our Earth is dying
The animals are crying
We're burning a world
That was meant for much more
When will we learn
That if we're unsustainable
We'll all burn
But at this point it's unavoidable
The day that I die
Please don't say goodbye
Bury me in a mushroom
Then you could watch me bloom
Give me back to mother nature
Because only she knows what I crave
To give back to her
The world I want to save
You held me so close
that my heart nearly froze
Forgetting who you are
While we're under the stars
I was yours and you were mine
Just for a little bit of time
3 years that I've known your name
That's 3 years that I didn't know your taste
but damn those eyes are so bright
Never thought I'd bounce off your light
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I'd share my bed a million times
if it means I'll feel you in between my thighs
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My burdens aren't yours to hold
but you wanted to do that and more
Reliance has a chokehold on my mind
Can't go a day without you in my veins
All I've ever done was hide
My cries are silenced in the rain
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Never enough...
you explored my body
like an astronomer with the cosmos
You're craving that sensation, but never me
I was easy to let go, call me pluto
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The smile on your face, lights my world for days
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Nowhere to go
Nowhere to run
I wait in my room for fun
What's the fun in this?
There's no bliss, even with a kiss
My beauty cannot be perceived by a simple minded being
I'm more than the dying body you're seeing
What I've been through cannot be forgotten
My heart and soul are yet to be rotten
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Seeing your name was terrifying
Who knew I'd be crying
You're broken from losing our love
But I'm finally beautiful, a dove
You don't understand your role
I probably truly hate you, [REDACTED]
Nothing more than a whore
To him
To them
To her
Nothing more than a fucking whore
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Pheromones linger in our noses
Our bodies know they've chosen
Heart to heart, tip to clit
Why must you always put me in a trip
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I've dug myself so deep
It's easy not to see
The mess building up
My walls are shining
The mouths aren't shut
A world where we're all dying
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Too easy to bring in
Too easy to let in
Too easy to fuck
Too easy, ugh
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Enough times have you been told
It's all too old
There won't be a change
When I'm stuck in these chains
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Will you still like me when it's all over?
At the end, we all know you'll choose her
Get me the fuck away from you
And how good you do.
Your names been in my dreams
Since I was thirteen
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Brain is twisted in your vines
Knowin that your taste's divine
Tongue deep in your mouth
Your hands glide down my gown
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Shit was better when you stayed
so much is wrong and I can't hear you say
"I'm leaving again, this is the end"
The tears on my face stained
a love never meant to be, stuck in vain
The horrors I put my mind in
Hoping at some point I'll win
Grasping at the skin
That fell so strongly to sin